Wednesday, 08 July 2009

  • The Moon Misses You Dearly

    I'm falling apart. I'm fighting myself. ... I don't really want to say any of this but I must.

    In the beginning, everything felt perfect, we understood each other. When we didn't we'd slowly explain what we meant. I had completely fallen for you and eventually, you too, learned to love me as I did you.

    I love you. I know you love me. We just get on each other's nerves sometimes. When I do it to you, you'd always tell me, but I was always too scared to say it to you when you did it to me.

    Please, I know I'm not making a lot of sense. But please, will you just talk to me? Speak to me. I'm falling apart without you.

    You tell me I'm clingy, and yeah, I guess I am. However, I think I have a perfectly good reason to be.

    We used to talk so much and now it just feels like it's died. Yes, we would say something to one another in a non-controversial way sometimes but compared to how it used to be, it's just so little. Like you're ignoring me. Having fun on your own.

    I'm okay with it, you have your own life. Your own friends, I'm not your only best friend. We can't always be glued to one another.

    I have needs. I know you do too. I try cater to your needs. Why won't you cater to mine?

    You asked me:
    "stay with me"
    I stayed.

    You asked me to leave you alone.
    My heart couldn't bare it,
    my mind told me not to,
    my body shook with conflicting emotions
    but I complied anyway.

    ... I'm loving you.

    Forever. No matter how much you don't want me to. I'll always love you. Then, now, forever.

    I know I'll regret saying this again, I thought I'd never have to say it again. I thought my loveless days were over, but I guess not.

    Here goes:

    The night I let you have your way.
    That night turned to days.
    And from days it turned to weeks.
    My body is tired from this lack of bliss.
    My mind is falling into the dark pits of my fears and insecurities.
    My heart is growing cold and my tears are closing
    those walls you once took down with the greatest of care and love.
    My eyes are tender and dry from the tears I cry at night.
    I'll be here for you until you push me away.


    Will we ever be the same? Will everything we worked for to understand one another be for naught? Will we stay forever in this silence until our bodies crumble and we rot away?

    Most importantly....

    Will I ever see you smile when we're together again?

    Day 200.

    This entry needs some additional information but I'm not sure I'm really okay with saying it and keeping the relationship a secret. The secret is something we both agreed to out of fear for people too close to us tearing the two of us apart or keeping us apart.

Sunday, 05 July 2009

  • The Plan

    I'm going to try and not be on Xanga or AIM or anything so much. Log on a week or so. So... just Facebook, emails and maybe even phone calls (for the few of you who actually know it).

    New friends/subs. Sorry.

    I will still post the projects and I have one more post to do until I take my summer break.

    I'm taking two classes right now. Ends the week before the last week of August and then I'll start my Fall term the last week of September.

    ---

    There was some talk last month about moving. It's still in the works. The issue was that there wasn't any real good understanding between people in the family and I was the catalyst who forced everybody to (for the first time) talk about it. I was going to move but they tried harder to stop me and it's working but nothing has really changed. I'm still the main target for everything wrong. So the plans are still in motion. Continually in motion--every time something burst, I make all movements to make the quick move out of this nowhere land.

    Homeless and free? ...or Caged and well... just caged, I guess.

    I submit to few and the few do not include them. It's been far too long that I've had to live under such conditions.

    . . . that is all.

    ---

    197, <3.

Saturday, 04 July 2009

  • So, today's Independence Day and I kind of...

    I remembered the movie (thanks Tim).
    I remembered the fireworks that have been going off since Monday and is possibly why I constantly hear a whining rocket noise and the sudden explosions around.
    I DID not however, remember what today was.

    Oops. o_o

    Happy 4th, anyway!

    Please don't blow up any fingers, burn anything or in any way shape or form get hurt from this patriotically explosive night.... or to some the entire (week/weekend).

    The green dino has spoken. You must obey!

    Sorry to peoples who try to talk to me on anyday other than Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays or Thursdays. I'm not exactly around but on those days.
    Now... to tag or not to tag? ... too hot, must turn off computer now...

Friday, 03 July 2009

  • Logic Quiz #1

    We had a group quiz in logic yesterday.

    1. If this was a normal class with the normal grading style of:

    2. "wrong answer = lose points"

    C. The entire logic class bombed the first quiz.

    ----

    Hm making up premises and conclusions are harder than it looks. o_O
    I wonder if the above is even a true and valid argument. (I hope it's at least one of these.)

Thursday, 02 July 2009

  • To those who have no time to write

    You should make a post telling all your friends and subscribers to give you credits in your time away and recommend the post for more comments and eprops.

    :)

    See the amazing logic in doing this?

    1. You'd get credits.
    2. Those commenting would get the same (hopefully) 2 eprops they give you for absolutely no good reason other than giving away something nobody actually owns.
    3. ... do you really need all the obvious reasons?

    So... kind of selling yourself out but completely NOT at the same time.

    Selling yourself out would be going on the little "extra credit" link we all have (if we are using the new private profile--I'm not sure about the old version) and posting an ad for 500 credits.

    This is () selfless.

Wednesday, 01 July 2009

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